Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Friday, December 26, 2008

Pampers to Depends (or visa versa)

Last night, we went to see The Curious Case of Benjamin Button and all I can say is "got no sense" -
Great story! Full of symbolism about life: what we think about our lives, how we see ourselves, growing old and the end of our lives. There were some great lines in that movie that I find keep playing out in my head. One in particular was that of an elderly male character who kept asking Benjamin if he had ever told him that he had been struck by lightning seven times - he said that God was trying to remind him that he was still here. After the scene where several of the elderly characters were sitting on the front porch of the home they were sharing and the narrator (who was Benjamin) describing these folks as those who had survived life's circumstances just to end up on the front porch talking about the weather - the movie went on to prove that however meaningless this might would seem that we would all just end up with nothing more to say than it's raining and cool out - each of ours lives have a real impact in this life in some way and though nothing last forever and some things will be forgotten - an impact nevertheless. I left thinking about this and how we may never know exactly how significant our individual impact might have been and how even as we are all heading in different directions in our lives that even if we can somehow change the course for just one person to see joy through sorrow and faith through fear then our lives would have been well spent.
Though time passes quickly and memories are short and we can't turn back the clock -
somewhere between pampers and depends, we did live!

This flick truly serves up food for thought!
This is just a small portion of the thoughts the movie left me chewing on - there are many layers with this one and you may walk away having experienced something totally different.

Friday, December 19, 2008

Trained for this

So my five year check up did not go as I had expected....the doctor's report (his facts I might add) says there are some new breast cancer metz on a few places on my bones. He says that I will be needing to go out to Houston to check out their latest greatest chemo cocktails and he will get the party started next month.
Yes, I will be honest with you I cried, I screamed, I punched a few walls and I threw a few things....well I hope you didn't think I would have said oh, how awesome and I am so pschyed. Heck no, this sucks sucks sucks! BUT I know too much about God now and I know that His grace really is sufficient as the Bible says. I stood before family and friends 5 years ago and shared my testimony of healing (which is truth I might add) and I will again.

Praying, reading God's word, going to church to be taught and to draw strength from other believers is all training so when a real problem comes along - you have trained for it.
But note: you never graduate from this training...

Friday, December 5, 2008

Five Years Today

Today I am at a total of 10 years out from stage 4 vulva cancer and 5 years to the very day out from breast cancer. It was exactly 5 years ago today that I was diagnosed with stage 4 breast cancer. I just needed to blog that I have every intention to keep on walking in healing and health. I thank God everyday for keeping me through all of that mess. Though there may be a few little left over thorns in the side here and there for me from this last cancer - I have faith enough to believe (no, I KNOW) that God will never leave me nor forsake me. He who has promised is faithful.
And for folks who often told me that I must be in denial - I say YEAP, I deny cancer and I always will!