The first thing I do when I return home from a visit to the doc is bathe...."washing away bone mets, maybe?", as if it would be that easy. If only those of us who have fought and fight cancer could just simply wash away the disease.
So the facts are lots of bone mets in my bones, it's not a disaster. I am not traumatized.
I have learned while battling a couple of hateful cancers over the past twelve years that I have been blessed with faith, "the gift of faith". I don't boast in the things of this world as I have none really to boast about. I have a moderate home and live a middle class life but what I boast in is the things of God. That God offers us so much peace and courage that I can say to fear, "You will never have me!" I can say to worry, "You don't belong in my life!"
I know God gives those who hold on to their confidence in Him the reward of courage and strength. There really is peace that surpasses all understanding. For those people who walk in relationship with Him, He supplies every need in every situation. I'll be honest with you, I don't know how this whole thing will play out or how long it will take to play out. I DON'T CARE!...what I know is the creator of this universe who spoke time into existence is own my side. I'll be even more transparent with you...there are days, times that I would rather go home to heaven where life really begins.
There will be a day when I will remember these times of test, shots, doctor's visits and treatment rooms, no more. This life is only a breath of eternity...
sometimes I want to make the decision to stop all of this, close my eyes and leave this body that has caused me so much trouble but that would be against all that I believe in. See, I believe in a forgiven God and a healing God. It is not Biblically correct for me to decide that I am not going to fight this fight. Paul said to "Fight the good fight of faith". Healing was as much part of the ministry of Jesus as salvation. Funny how the disciples could accept the healing but could not understand salvation and now we can accept salvation but not healing. As much as I want to go home where my citizenship exist, I believe I will stick around a while and proclaim God's goodness.
Though I walk sometimes in the valley of the shadow of death, I will never fear! He created me and the Word says He "Knew me" before I was formed in my mother's womb. I know that as long as I breathe, I have purpose. I give all of this to him!
I still have faith in God!
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Rascal Flatts - Unstoppable with lyrics
When I heard Rascal Flatts' new song, "Unstoppable", it blew me away. A simple song about love being unstoppable. This kind of unconditional, unmerited love can only come from Love Himself, God.
Take in these lyrics and know He Loves YOU like this.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Boston for Spring Break 2010
Great Spring break trip with our son.Visited:
Walden Pond, Henry David Thoreau's home, Salem and The Salem Witch Museum, Cape Cod where we ate some great Chowder, The Freedom Trail (what a walk through history) and that famous great Duck Tour where my son and I actually got to drive it. Checked out Mike's Pastries (Yum) and The Cheesecake Factory (Even Yummier) and the old 80's Cheers bar.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Happy Easter
Jesus destroyed death by death.
I am so thankful He did....I know when I leave this world, I will live again with Him for eternity.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Friday, March 26, 2010
A Note From Tyler Perry - Don't Stop Believing
Don't Stop Believing
March 17th , 2010
I got to tell you, I miss my mother every day. I have never felt a pain like this, or missed someone so much and so hard. It is the single most difficult thing I've ever had to endure in my life. Some days I don't want to get out of bed and, the truth of the matter is, if I wouldn't have booked this tour, I wouldn't be leaving the house at all.
I performed last night in Milwaukee and as I was leaving the Arena, I was caught in the traffic of all the people leaving. I sat there behind the tinted windows looking at thousands of people leaving the venue. So many smiling faces and happy people, couples holding hands and children running and laughing. I saw several buses in front of the venue loading the elderly. It brought tears to my eyes because I know that while so many think that they came to get something from me, the truth is they gave me so much more. The joy and laughter and happiness are contagious. It's great having something meaningful to do; something that gives me joy. God bless you for that. You are helping me to find my way through a very rough time.
Seeing all of the folks that enjoy what I do, all over this country is so inspirational to me. It moves me, because I remember when nobody was coming to my plays. My first play took 7 years to get off the ground. From 1992 to 1998, I was trying and trying to find an audience. I would put it up in different cities, one show a year, and every time I tried, it failed; (or what I thought was failure, now I see that it was all a part of the success). I wanted to give up so many times. So many people told me it wouldn't work; so many people made it their business to convince me to give up on my dreams. But I didn't give up. I kept moving. With no one being there, I kept believing; when I got down, I would pray even harder. I think I wore God down about that show!...LOL. So glad He heard my prayers. It scares me to think where I would be if I had given up. WOW! What a thought…if I had given up, you wouldn't be reading this right now. Thank you Jesus for faith. All of that to say...don't stop believing!
I woke up this morning with this question for you, and think about this...What brings you Joy? What dreams have you abandoned because it got too hard or you failed at them? People will often tell you what you can't do; they will try to discourage YOU from reaching for your goals...even the ones that are closest to you will say things that hurt the most, but, whatever you do...DON'T STOP BELIEVING!
God didn't give your friends and family your vision - He gave it to you. You have to try. I think that is why there are so many unhappy people. I think so many people have walked away from their dreams because it got too hard; they stopped believing because they got discouraged...don't stop believing!
Every miracle in my life started with someone telling me what I could not do.
TP
I have to agree, I think people have stopped believing in themselves, resulting in downward spirals that ultimately cause needless trials and trouble on every side. We struggle to believe that God actually has a plan and purpose for our life. Tyler Perry's trust in God and his confidence in himself opened doors that the Bible says "No man can shut!"
I attended Tyler Perry's play, "Madea's Big Happy Family", last night at the BiLo Center in Greenville, SC and I laughed and cried and laughed again for two hours straight. I left the BiLo Center feeling encouraged and full of joy. The audience was comprised of people of all races, ages and genders yet we laughed in perfect unison and cried in grand harmony like the most beautiful of all the choirs I have ever heard.
A cheerful heart does good like medicine, but a broken spirit makes one sick. Prov 17:22
March 17th , 2010
I got to tell you, I miss my mother every day. I have never felt a pain like this, or missed someone so much and so hard. It is the single most difficult thing I've ever had to endure in my life. Some days I don't want to get out of bed and, the truth of the matter is, if I wouldn't have booked this tour, I wouldn't be leaving the house at all.
I performed last night in Milwaukee and as I was leaving the Arena, I was caught in the traffic of all the people leaving. I sat there behind the tinted windows looking at thousands of people leaving the venue. So many smiling faces and happy people, couples holding hands and children running and laughing. I saw several buses in front of the venue loading the elderly. It brought tears to my eyes because I know that while so many think that they came to get something from me, the truth is they gave me so much more. The joy and laughter and happiness are contagious. It's great having something meaningful to do; something that gives me joy. God bless you for that. You are helping me to find my way through a very rough time.
Seeing all of the folks that enjoy what I do, all over this country is so inspirational to me. It moves me, because I remember when nobody was coming to my plays. My first play took 7 years to get off the ground. From 1992 to 1998, I was trying and trying to find an audience. I would put it up in different cities, one show a year, and every time I tried, it failed; (or what I thought was failure, now I see that it was all a part of the success). I wanted to give up so many times. So many people told me it wouldn't work; so many people made it their business to convince me to give up on my dreams. But I didn't give up. I kept moving. With no one being there, I kept believing; when I got down, I would pray even harder. I think I wore God down about that show!...LOL. So glad He heard my prayers. It scares me to think where I would be if I had given up. WOW! What a thought…if I had given up, you wouldn't be reading this right now. Thank you Jesus for faith. All of that to say...don't stop believing!
I woke up this morning with this question for you, and think about this...What brings you Joy? What dreams have you abandoned because it got too hard or you failed at them? People will often tell you what you can't do; they will try to discourage YOU from reaching for your goals...even the ones that are closest to you will say things that hurt the most, but, whatever you do...DON'T STOP BELIEVING!
God didn't give your friends and family your vision - He gave it to you. You have to try. I think that is why there are so many unhappy people. I think so many people have walked away from their dreams because it got too hard; they stopped believing because they got discouraged...don't stop believing!
Every miracle in my life started with someone telling me what I could not do.
TP
I have to agree, I think people have stopped believing in themselves, resulting in downward spirals that ultimately cause needless trials and trouble on every side. We struggle to believe that God actually has a plan and purpose for our life. Tyler Perry's trust in God and his confidence in himself opened doors that the Bible says "No man can shut!"
I attended Tyler Perry's play, "Madea's Big Happy Family", last night at the BiLo Center in Greenville, SC and I laughed and cried and laughed again for two hours straight. I left the BiLo Center feeling encouraged and full of joy. The audience was comprised of people of all races, ages and genders yet we laughed in perfect unison and cried in grand harmony like the most beautiful of all the choirs I have ever heard.
A cheerful heart does good like medicine, but a broken spirit makes one sick. Prov 17:22
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
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