Saturday, July 28, 2012

Woke up in the middle of the night in pain and doubled over from yesterday's chemo. I was told by the nurse yesterday that I only have one chemo left scheduled. 
Soon I will awaken from this midnight hour as morning is drawing near. My Lord has carried me once again through the valley of the shadow of death. 
Truth is, this has been one of the most difficult couple of years of any of the past years while in this dry and barren land. The enemy set his intentions on destroying my family in every way he thought he could and he doesn't fight fair.. he offers no mercy and incapable of compassion..he's callous and he desires only to destroy and devour the very soul of a man. 
Through it all, my God has been faithful..faithful and true. He reminded me over and over again that no one nor no thing in this world could ever pluck my family from His hand. We are free. Truth for us all is none of us are immune from the hurts of this life. Everyone has their 'cancers' and everyone has a devil to fight. We are all on the enemy's annihilation agenda. Seek the King and allow Him to serve you His living water and you will never thirst again..even in the driest of desert places. 
I haven't blogged or worked on my book for months as the distractions of my family's lives has consumed my every thought..however, over the past months during trials and tribulations as friends and my church family locked arms with me to charge the enemy's camp, I came to realize once again that the windows of Heaven had remained open through it all and all the time, in all of it, God had never moved. His eyes were on us and His arms were surrounding us. It was my focus that shifted to these things that are so temporal.. when my eyes should have remained on those eternal things. But in the presence of the King, my eyes were lifted back towards His amazing grace. I know in whom I have believed and He is the One who fights our battles for us. My life belongs to Him therefore, no man, no disease, no tribulation will ever take me or my family from the embrace of His almighty arms. I am in awe of Him and I have been showered with His favor and consumed by His love. He has kept my family, kept His promises and opened doors to my family that no man can shut and closed doors that no man could ever open. In His presence, there is fullness of joy..there is peace that surpasses all understanding. Lean on Him. The veil was torn and we can come to Him just as we are.. broken and battered. He never expects perfection..that's man's expectations. This is where I choose to live and will for the remainder of my days, which will be long and in divine health as He promised..nestled in His wings. 
Let's be is never easy and there are times..more so than not..that we don't know how we will find the strength to rise come morning to face yet another day. The only way I have been able to endure all of my adult life has been 'in the presence of The King.'